Postpartum Depression

It was getting close to midnight when the doctor showed up and brought with her a scary word: emergency c-section. Baby wasn’t coming out on their own and was stressed. I had been in labor for about 26 hours at this point so even though the words scared me, really I just wanted the babyContinue reading “Postpartum Depression”

If You Were Healthy

What would you do? Would you exercise? Go on an adventure? Finish your homework? Organize your self made chaos? Oh sorry…those were my thoughts. I have big goals that I’ve always held myself back from. If I was completely healthy I have a list of things to do. Now that I am on medication andContinue reading “If You Were Healthy”

Day 1

“We can spend our lives letting the world tell us who we are. Sane or insane. Saints or sex addicts. Heroes or victims. Letting history tell us how good or bad we are. Letting our past decide our future. Or we can decide for ourselves. And maybe it’s our job to invent something better.” ChuckContinue reading “Day 1”

Weight of The World

The other day I was up, and yesterday I could feel myself spiral down. It was a weird feeling to notice it now that I am getting increasingly better at identifying the shifts. The more I learn, the more I am recognizing signals and triggers. It’s kind of scary, kind of intriguing, but overall it’sContinue reading “Weight of The World”

Inner Time Consciousness

Part 1 Time, the healer and the killer Random Pinterest Post I am notorious at being late, no lie. I have not pinpointed the exact cause as to why I suck at this but it has wreaked havoc on my life. I have been fired, written up, scolded and slandered just like any other perpetuallyContinue reading “Inner Time Consciousness”

If I Had Known Then…

…what I know now…That little girl would not have been put into the situations she was, or made the choices she did. A common indication of Bipolar one and Bipolar two is hypersexuality, and now that I am diagnosed, I have been thinking a lot about past choices relating to this that caused even moreContinue reading “If I Had Known Then…”

A Bipolar, Single Mother Kind of Life

It’s a snow day!And I am in a good mood! Those mornings that I wake up with energy, motivation, and happy thoughts are the best. I welcome them with open arms because that means if I can balance the day right, it will be an enjoyable one. It feels nice to get things done inContinue reading “A Bipolar, Single Mother Kind of Life”

First World Anxiety

Anx+I+EtyA nervous disorder characterized by a state of excessive uneasiness and apprehension, typically with compulsive behavior or panic attacks. Oxford Languages Today was a pretty anxious day since it was an extremely windy one. So windy, in fact, that it tore the siding from my work’s building. I am thankful that it was mainly myContinue reading “First World Anxiety”