I am trying my best with what I have. But it’s not enough. Trying my best with work. But it’s not enough. Trying my best with my relationships. But it’s not enough. Trying to be a good mom. It’s never enough. Trying my hardest to keep a clean house. Not enough. I am five feetContinue reading “5 Feet Under”
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Fixated
It’s been a while… I tend to fixate on something, go hard in the paint, then trickle off until it renews my interest. WordPress has became one of these fixations. So, Here I am, interest renewed. Hopefully yours is too. -Just a quick update- While I have been gone, I moved to my moms RVContinue reading “Fixated”
Personality Traits In Bipolar
Change is upon me. I am in a season of change, I can feel it creeping much like Winter to Spring. It’s time to really accept what I cannot change, move on and find what it means to be truly happy with the now. My mom has always said that I resist change. As IContinue reading “Personality Traits In Bipolar”
&Found
I feel good today, like I have figured out some crucial details of my life. Instead of getting a second job and figuring out care for my kiddo, I decided to try the RV Lifestyle. I’ll be able to save money for land one day and then build my dream home. That’s the goal atContinue reading “&Found”
Lost
The way life ebbs and flows with the tide of time is amazing. One minute you are doing good and the next you aren’t. My medication is starting to help me balance my moods but life still happens, so navigating while medicated has been a learning experience. I still feel, and go through emotions. It’sContinue reading “Lost”
Up ⬆️ Then Down ⬇️
Things that are hard to do with mental illnesses: Shower Brush your teeth Get out of bed Stick to plans Eat healthy Clean up Do I need to list more? It’s hard to do day to day tasks with mental illness. People have told me to just do it. Just do it. Duh. But thenContinue reading “Up ⬆️ Then Down ⬇️”
Momma Tries
Dear Child, I want you to know that my mood swings was never your fault, it was all on me. I know I apologize every time but if you are anything like me when I was growing up, it will still affect you. I am learning just as you are, and every day is anContinue reading “Momma Tries”
I Just Need Time
Time to figure out my own bullshit. Time to pick the pieces up. Time to gather myself, Time to clean this mess. And time to become the me I am meant to be.
Psychomotor Activity In Mood Disorders
Your handwriting. the way you walk. which china pattern you choose. it’s all giving you away. everything you do shows your hand. everything is a self portrait. everything is a diary. Chuck Palahniuk, Diary Ask a veteran how boot camp was and you will hear “It was the funnest time I never want to haveContinue reading “Psychomotor Activity In Mood Disorders”
PTSD Inducing Part 2
“Hey, is this you?” My heart raced. They found the pictures and saw me, exposed to the world because one boy decided to exploit me when I broke it off. Please read my post PTSD Inducing (link) to better understand this blog post. Trigger warning, and long post. Let’s call this kid “Fuckhead”. Fuckhead wasContinue reading “PTSD Inducing Part 2”
Undiagnosed 