Timeliness

Life has been a rollercoaster as usual. The scales are never balanced. The foundation is solid…but it is taking time. Time I have no patience for. But I guess that’s an essence of it…time does not care what I have going on, just the one objective it has-to keep going forward. So like time, IContinue reading “Timeliness”

Psychomotor Activity In Mood Disorders

Your handwriting. the way you walk. which china pattern you choose. it’s all giving you away. everything you do shows your hand. everything is a self portrait. everything is a diary. Chuck Palahniuk, Diary Ask a veteran how boot camp was and you will hear “It was the funnest time I never want to haveContinue reading “Psychomotor Activity In Mood Disorders”

What’s To Blame

The bipolar mind is fascinating. It literally is two: one good and one bad. Comedy and tragedy. Crazy how I got a comedy and tragedy tattoo in my twenties but found out I was bipolar at 30. Anyways I read this article today, https://pronghornpsych.com/how-does-bipolar-disorder-affect-the-brain/ The interesting takeaway I caught was that less grey matter thanContinue reading “What’s To Blame”

I Am Enough

Bipolar Relationships And if love keeps giving me lemons, I just mix them in my drink…” Bluebird by Miranda Lambart Are you bipolar and find relationships difficult? Growing up I thought that it was mainly me messing up…and now I’m realizing that it was both of us. I don’t know how to make anything lastContinue reading “I Am Enough”

College Is Not For Me

I wish there was a relief for students with mental health. Like prove that you are diagnosed and show the school and bam all of the failures are knocked off your GPA. You know what they say about wishes…wish in one hand and 💩 in the other see which one fills up faster. I haveContinue reading “College Is Not For Me”

What’s Real? What Is Me?

Every mood has me questioning myself these days since the diagnoses. Is this emotion an overreaction? Is it justified? Is this my mental illness or is this me? I have seen posts on bipolar groups of others questioning the same thing. It’s nice that someone can relate but there isn’t a real “fix” to thisContinue reading “What’s Real? What Is Me?”

Absolutely Inappropriate

I say the darndest things… Like: “Hey loser, you done sticking your finger up your butt and ready to work?”I blamed the military for my potty mouth. A supervisor once told me “you are ugly when you curse” and I understood what he meant. I didn’t care, but I understood. Becoming a parent changed meContinue reading “Absolutely Inappropriate”

Narcissistic Love

Have you ever dated a suspected narcissist? I have. 💩 sucks. Back in 2015 I had the worst break up of my life. Like PTSD inducing trauma kind of break up. I am not ready to talk about it to the blogging world, but years and years down the road it is a trauma thatContinue reading “Narcissistic Love”

Motor Control

Why can’t I hold on to stuff? Physically and mentally? I think the other day I was talking to a coworker and grabbed something, only to drop it. I put it back, grabbed for it again, and knocked it over. It was a weird moment, honestly, but it got me to notice patterns where IContinue reading “Motor Control”

Impulse Impulse Impulse

Uh Oh 😬 What is the worst thing you bought on impulse? For me it was a king size bed, dresser, and night stand 😂 my ex husband said no to one so once I left, I got one 😬 but mannnnnnn….. This stuff is heavy af 😩 I have had to move it soContinue reading “Impulse Impulse Impulse”