I say the darndest things… Like: “Hey loser, you done sticking your finger up your butt and ready to work?”I blamed the military for my potty mouth. A supervisor once told me “you are ugly when you curse” and I understood what he meant. I didn’t care, but I understood. Becoming a parent changed meContinue reading “Absolutely Inappropriate”
Tag Archives: Anxiety Disorder
A Stigma Worth Fighting
“He started breathing heavy like he was going to make himself hyperventilate.” I listened to my friend explain a difficult coworker and how they have bad anxiety. All I could think about was the time I hyperventilated while I was in the service, and how they probably talked about me the same way my friendContinue reading “A Stigma Worth Fighting”
Narcissistic Love
Have you ever dated a suspected narcissist? I have. 💩 sucks. Back in 2015 I had the worst break up of my life. Like PTSD inducing trauma kind of break up. I am not ready to talk about it to the blogging world, but years and years down the road it is a trauma thatContinue reading “Narcissistic Love”
Motor Control
Why can’t I hold on to stuff? Physically and mentally? I think the other day I was talking to a coworker and grabbed something, only to drop it. I put it back, grabbed for it again, and knocked it over. It was a weird moment, honestly, but it got me to notice patterns where IContinue reading “Motor Control”
Mania
In short, for myself, I am a hard act to follow. ― Kay Redfield Jamison, An Unquiet Mind: A Memoir of Moods and Madness She’s still there. As the abilify builds up in my system, she has appeared. The other night I stayed up until 2 a.m. even though I was tired. I could not get herContinue reading “Mania”
Day 10
To a mind that is still, a whole universe surrenders. Lao Tzu Ten days that I have been on my medication now, and those ten days have been interesting. Once I got past the initial shock of having a clear head and sprinkled in some life experience, I have started to notice a few things…Continue reading “Day 10”
Impulse Impulse Impulse
Uh Oh 😬 What is the worst thing you bought on impulse? For me it was a king size bed, dresser, and night stand 😂 my ex husband said no to one so once I left, I got one 😬 but mannnnnnn….. This stuff is heavy af 😩 I have had to move it soContinue reading “Impulse Impulse Impulse”
A Bipolar Pregnancy
My pregnancy was fairly easy to be honest. I was undiagnosed, but physically my child was healthy. I think I threw up once because I brushed my teeth wrong but that was it. I was blessed to have an easy time, even if the aftermath wasn’t the best time. I had an emergency c-section becauseContinue reading “A Bipolar Pregnancy”
A Foundation To Stand On
A successful man is one who can lay a firm foundation with the bricks others have thrown at him. David Brinkley I remember sitting on the couch in a little apartment in Texas, debating on what to do. I had ran out of my antidepressant weeks ago but I thought the longer I went detoxingContinue reading “A Foundation To Stand On”
Mental Illness and Memory Loss
“Yeah I’ll have to talk to my psychiatrist about that and uhhhh…there was something else.” I explained to my friend on the phone. After a long pause my brain grasped the words I needed. “Oh yeah! Memory loss!” I giggled, trying to make light of a real problem I have faced for many years. MemoryContinue reading “Mental Illness and Memory Loss”
Undiagnosed 