I feel good today, like I have figured out some crucial details of my life. Instead of getting a second job and figuring out care for my kiddo, I decided to try the RV Lifestyle. I’ll be able to save money for land one day and then build my dream home. That’s the goal atContinue reading “&Found”

Up ⬆️ Then Down ⬇️

Things that are hard to do with mental illnesses: Shower Brush your teeth Get out of bed Stick to plans Eat healthy Clean up Do I need to list more? It’s hard to do day to day tasks with mental illness. People have told me to just do it. Just do it. Duh. But thenContinue reading “Up ⬆️ Then Down ⬇️”

I Just Need Time

Time to figure out my own bullshit. Time to pick the pieces up. Time to gather myself, Time to clean this mess. And time to become the me I am meant to be.

30+ Days On Medication

The weather seemed to control my moods today instead of the medication. It was bright and sunny this afternoon, but now it’s snowing and cold. I was having a great day and then I was in my head with the intrusive thoughts. They’re back, I guess. And my head swirled with negative thinking that grewContinue reading “30+ Days On Medication”

Mentally Visible

The internet is a frontier of information, but just like a frontier of land- you have to have a starting point. Like your algorithm. So how do we add mental health to people’s algorithm? I could spend money I do not have, so that is a bad idea. So how do I do this forContinue reading “Mentally Visible”

What’s To Blame

The bipolar mind is fascinating. It literally is two: one good and one bad. Comedy and tragedy. Crazy how I got a comedy and tragedy tattoo in my twenties but found out I was bipolar at 30. Anyways I read this article today, https://pronghornpsych.com/how-does-bipolar-disorder-affect-the-brain/ The interesting takeaway I caught was that less grey matter thanContinue reading “What’s To Blame”

Up In Cheyenne Mountain

I need to hike soon. If you haven’t, and you are able, I highly recommend. It’s a nice reminder that your problems are small and suddenly you aren’t so upset anymore. Up in Cheyenne Mountain I have hiked a lot. My birthday hike, my sunrise hike, and my sunset hike. The city below sparkles withContinue reading “Up In Cheyenne Mountain”

Misunderstood Mom

It was a long night. My son could not sleep, which meant I didn’t sleep, and the morning came a little too quickly for me. It’s not that much of a bother, it’s what I’m here for as a mother, but my mind spun with anger at others from my past this morning. Why amContinue reading “Misunderstood Mom”

College Is Not For Me

I wish there was a relief for students with mental health. Like prove that you are diagnosed and show the school and bam all of the failures are knocked off your GPA. You know what they say about wishes…wish in one hand and 💩 in the other see which one fills up faster. I haveContinue reading “College Is Not For Me”

What’s Real? What Is Me?

Every mood has me questioning myself these days since the diagnoses. Is this emotion an overreaction? Is it justified? Is this my mental illness or is this me? I have seen posts on bipolar groups of others questioning the same thing. It’s nice that someone can relate but there isn’t a real “fix” to thisContinue reading “What’s Real? What Is Me?”