Your handwriting. the way you walk. which china pattern you choose. it’s all giving you away. everything you do shows your hand. everything is a self portrait. everything is a diary. Chuck Palahniuk, Diary Ask a veteran how boot camp was and you will hear “It was the funnest time I never want to haveContinue reading “Psychomotor Activity In Mood Disorders”
Tag Archives: Anxiety Disorder
Mentally Visible
The internet is a frontier of information, but just like a frontier of land- you have to have a starting point. Like your algorithm. So how do we add mental health to people’s algorithm? I could spend money I do not have, so that is a bad idea. So how do I do this forContinue reading “Mentally Visible”
PTSD Inducing Part 2
“Hey, is this you?” My heart raced. They found the pictures and saw me, exposed to the world because one boy decided to exploit me when I broke it off. Please read my post PTSD Inducing (link) to better understand this blog post. Trigger warning, and long post. Let’s call this kid “Fuckhead”. Fuckhead wasContinue reading “PTSD Inducing Part 2”
What’s To Blame
The bipolar mind is fascinating. It literally is two: one good and one bad. Comedy and tragedy. Crazy how I got a comedy and tragedy tattoo in my twenties but found out I was bipolar at 30. Anyways I read this article today, https://pronghornpsych.com/how-does-bipolar-disorder-affect-the-brain/ The interesting takeaway I caught was that less grey matter thanContinue reading “What’s To Blame”
Up In Cheyenne Mountain
I need to hike soon. If you haven’t, and you are able, I highly recommend. It’s a nice reminder that your problems are small and suddenly you aren’t so upset anymore. Up in Cheyenne Mountain I have hiked a lot. My birthday hike, my sunrise hike, and my sunset hike. The city below sparkles withContinue reading “Up In Cheyenne Mountain”
Misunderstood Mom
It was a long night. My son could not sleep, which meant I didn’t sleep, and the morning came a little too quickly for me. It’s not that much of a bother, it’s what I’m here for as a mother, but my mind spun with anger at others from my past this morning. Why amContinue reading “Misunderstood Mom”
I Am Enough
Bipolar Relationships And if love keeps giving me lemons, I just mix them in my drink…” Bluebird by Miranda Lambart Are you bipolar and find relationships difficult? Growing up I thought that it was mainly me messing up…and now I’m realizing that it was both of us. I don’t know how to make anything lastContinue reading “I Am Enough”
College Is Not For Me
I wish there was a relief for students with mental health. Like prove that you are diagnosed and show the school and bam all of the failures are knocked off your GPA. You know what they say about wishes…wish in one hand and 💩 in the other see which one fills up faster. I haveContinue reading “College Is Not For Me”
PTSD Inducing
This is a trauma post so…trigger warning. Guns, domestic violence, and narcissism… My understanding of PTSD was a slow process. I always thought it was an extreme, like can’t-go-out-in-public type of disability. Nightmares of trauma are common, so it’s what we hear about the most as a symptom, but I did not have very manyContinue reading “PTSD Inducing”
What’s Real? What Is Me?
Every mood has me questioning myself these days since the diagnoses. Is this emotion an overreaction? Is it justified? Is this my mental illness or is this me? I have seen posts on bipolar groups of others questioning the same thing. It’s nice that someone can relate but there isn’t a real “fix” to thisContinue reading “What’s Real? What Is Me?”
Undiagnosed 