Have you ever dated a suspected narcissist?
I have. 💩 sucks.
Back in 2015 I had the worst break up of my life. Like PTSD inducing trauma kind of break up. I am not ready to talk about it to the blogging world, but years and years down the road it is a trauma that I have yet to process.
The things that happened shaped me into who I am today, and I hope that it was for a purpose at least. I learn new ways it shaped my brain all of the time, and now that I am diagnosed I can see how my Bipolar came into play as well. It is a dark road I know I am coming to, but I have been taking detours since the event and it has been exhausting.
Narcissism is a large factor in my tale, and I did not realize it then until I went through it. The boy I met was originally charming, funny, exciting and had the best eyes. As soon as he reeled me in, things became ugly as I fought back. I like to think I am an independent person, so someone trying to control me made for tension and lash-backs, and narcissist have a very hard time with that.
While everyone may show occasional narcissistic behavior, true narcissists frequently disregard others or their feelings.
WebMD Editorial Contributors
You can identify Narcissist Personality Disorder (Yes, a real disorder!) by their outward behaviour such as:
– Grandiosity. Not just occasionally, but regularly.
– Sense of entitlement
– Manipulative behavior
– Lack of Empathy
NPD is a real disorder, which like mine…means that the person that terrorized me had a genuine problem with their brain, both chemically and emotionlessly. When I read the article posted below, I realized that just like me…he was undiagnosed and suffering too. It does not excuse the behavior, we knew right from wrong, but it sheds light on a problem individuals are facing today and may not even know.
Ugh. That means I need to dive into NPD and get down to his level to come to terms with the event?
Lame.
NPD Article:
https://www.webmd.com/mental-health/narcissism-symptoms-sign
Image Url:
https://www.deviantart.com/xbliss/art/Manic-and-Depression-1-of-8-45734708
Undiagnosed 
That is a really compassionate viewpoint to take on that person regarding the NPD. It is tricky where to draw the line with disorders which produce harmful traits, especially because people with NPD so rarely are able to introspect about it or even seek help about it. Anyway, the main thing for us on the outside is to know when to reduce contact with people who are harming us, right? NPD sure is a fascinating subject.
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