I say the darndest things…
Like: “Hey loser, you done sticking your finger up your butt and ready to work?”
I blamed the military for my potty mouth. A supervisor once told me “you are ugly when you curse” and I understood what he meant. I didn’t care, but I understood.
Becoming a parent changed me a little bit in that aspect that when my child began to understand me more, I had to clean up my mouth. I continue to have an impulse to say some weird stuff, which I thought was normal me, but it is another sign of bipolar often overlooked: Pressured Speech.
Pressure Speech happens when mania is in full swing and you may feel an impulse to tell others your thoughts, even in inappropriate timing or louder than intended.
“In all these cases, pressured speech may present with some or all of the following:
- rapid speech that does not pause for others to speak
- disorganized thoughts expressed through words
- loud speech that is above a normal volume for the situation
- speaking about numerous ideas at once
- talking about inappropriate things at work, school, home, or in the community
- including jokes or particular rhythms in speech
- speaking with a sense of urgency
- not being able to speak fast enough to keep up with thoughts” – Medical News Today
It all makes sense to me now why I could never speak like I can write. I stumble over my words, change my mind in the middle of a sentence, and can’t recall words I am seeking to complete my sentences. It’s incredibly frustrating, and embarrassing at times.
But there’s a good side of it, too.
I’m hilarious, for one.
I haven’t been fired for my mouth…yet.
People seem to accept me for the most part.
Article on Pressured Speech: https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/319186#symptoms