And if love keeps giving me lemons, I just mix them in my drink…”Bluebird by Miranda Lambart
Are you bipolar and find relationships difficult? Growing up I thought that it was mainly me messing up…and now I’m realizing that it was both of us.
I don’t know how to make anything last longer than three years. I always find myself impulsively breaking up with someone, only to regret it later like I didn’t give it a real shot. Or I’ll pick the completely wrong person but think they are the “one”.
And it’s discouraging to be honest. People can make marriages last but I run at the first sign of trouble like a race horse. I shut down my heart, become ice cold, and pull the rug out from under them. I’ll move in one month and move out the next over a spat.
I wonder if anyone will ever be able to handle my moods, and what kind of person they have to be in order to do so. I wonder if I’ll ever find the person that is meant for me, or find a way to be alone.
I have to remind myself more than I care to admit that I am enough for the right person. Just like I am enough for my support system, I am also the mate to another soul.