“Yeah I’ll have to talk to my psychiatrist about that and uhhhh…there was something else.” I explained to my friend on the phone. After a long pause my brain grasped the words I needed. “Oh yeah! Memory loss!” I giggled, trying to make light of a real problem I have faced for many years. MemoryContinue reading “Mental Illness and Memory Loss”
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Postpartum Depression
It was getting close to midnight when the doctor showed up and brought with her a scary word: emergency c-section. Baby wasn’t coming out on their own and was stressed. I had been in labor for about 26 hours at this point so even though the words scared me, really I just wanted the babyContinue reading “Postpartum Depression”
If You Were Healthy
What would you do? Would you exercise? Go on an adventure? Finish your homework? Organize your self made chaos? Oh sorry…those were my thoughts. I have big goals that I’ve always held myself back from. If I was completely healthy I have a list of things to do. Now that I am on medication andContinue reading “If You Were Healthy”
Day 1
“We can spend our lives letting the world tell us who we are. Sane or insane. Saints or sex addicts. Heroes or victims. Letting history tell us how good or bad we are. Letting our past decide our future. Or we can decide for ourselves. And maybe it’s our job to invent something better.” ChuckContinue reading “Day 1”
Weight of The World
The other day I was up, and yesterday I could feel myself spiral down. It was a weird feeling to notice it now that I am getting increasingly better at identifying the shifts. The more I learn, the more I am recognizing signals and triggers. It’s kind of scary, kind of intriguing, but overall it’sContinue reading “Weight of The World”
Inner Time Consciousness
Part 1 Time, the healer and the killer Random Pinterest Post I am notorious at being late, no lie. I have not pinpointed the exact cause as to why I suck at this but it has wreaked havoc on my life. I have been fired, written up, scolded and slandered just like any other perpetuallyContinue reading “Inner Time Consciousness”
If I Had Known Then…
…what I know now…That little girl would not have been put into the situations she was, or made the choices she did. A common indication of Bipolar one and Bipolar two is hypersexuality, and now that I am diagnosed, I have been thinking a lot about past choices relating to this that caused even moreContinue reading “If I Had Known Then…”
A Bipolar, Single Mother Kind of Life
It’s a snow day!And I am in a good mood! Those mornings that I wake up with energy, motivation, and happy thoughts are the best. I welcome them with open arms because that means if I can balance the day right, it will be an enjoyable one. It feels nice to get things done inContinue reading “A Bipolar, Single Mother Kind of Life”
Intrusive Thought
Sometimes I wonder if Bipolar Disorder is a disconnect between your conscious and your subconscious. Like….there are literally two trains of thought in that dome. One tells me the good, and the other tells me the bad. My brain is a comedy and tragedy mask, both fighting for the spotlight. By good I mean allContinue reading “Intrusive Thought”
The Journey Begins
Last Wednesday was an intense day, and since Christmas was right around the corner- I had other priorities to focus on before I could let it out. I finally saw the psychiatrist! I waited two months for this appointment because the VA is slow with everything, so it was nice to not miss this one.Continue reading “The Journey Begins”
Undiagnosed 