I Am Enough

Bipolar Relationships And if love keeps giving me lemons, I just mix them in my drink…” Bluebird by Miranda Lambart Are you bipolar and find relationships difficult? Growing up I thought that it was mainly me messing up…and now I’m realizing that it was both of us. I don’t know how to make anything lastContinue reading “I Am Enough”

College Is Not For Me

I wish there was a relief for students with mental health. Like prove that you are diagnosed and show the school and bam all of the failures are knocked off your GPA. You know what they say about wishes…wish in one hand and 💩 in the other see which one fills up faster. I haveContinue reading “College Is Not For Me”

What’s Real? What Is Me?

Every mood has me questioning myself these days since the diagnoses. Is this emotion an overreaction? Is it justified? Is this my mental illness or is this me? I have seen posts on bipolar groups of others questioning the same thing. It’s nice that someone can relate but there isn’t a real “fix” to thisContinue reading “What’s Real? What Is Me?”

Absolutely Inappropriate

I say the darndest things… Like: “Hey loser, you done sticking your finger up your butt and ready to work?”I blamed the military for my potty mouth. A supervisor once told me “you are ugly when you curse” and I understood what he meant. I didn’t care, but I understood. Becoming a parent changed meContinue reading “Absolutely Inappropriate”

A Stigma Worth Fighting

“He started breathing heavy like he was going to make himself hyperventilate.” I listened to my friend explain a difficult coworker and how they have bad anxiety. All I could think about was the time I hyperventilated while I was in the service, and how they probably talked about me the same way my friendContinue reading “A Stigma Worth Fighting”

Day 10

To a mind that is still, a whole universe surrenders. Lao Tzu Ten days that I have been on my medication now, and those ten days have been interesting. Once I got past the initial shock of having a clear head and sprinkled in some life experience, I have started to notice a few things…Continue reading “Day 10”

Impulse Impulse Impulse

Uh Oh 😬 What is the worst thing you bought on impulse? For me it was a king size bed, dresser, and night stand 😂 my ex husband said no to one so once I left, I got one 😬 but mannnnnnn….. This stuff is heavy af 😩 I have had to move it soContinue reading “Impulse Impulse Impulse”

A Bipolar Pregnancy

My pregnancy was fairly easy to be honest. I was undiagnosed, but physically my child was healthy. I think I threw up once because I brushed my teeth wrong but that was it. I was blessed to have an easy time, even if the aftermath wasn’t the best time. I had an emergency c-section becauseContinue reading “A Bipolar Pregnancy”

Postpartum Depression

It was getting close to midnight when the doctor showed up and brought with her a scary word: emergency c-section. Baby wasn’t coming out on their own and was stressed. I had been in labor for about 26 hours at this point so even though the words scared me, really I just wanted the babyContinue reading “Postpartum Depression”