Undiagnosed

Fixated

It’s been a while… I tend to fixate on something, go hard in the paint, then trickle off until it renews my interest. WordPress has became one of these fixations. So, Here I am, interest renewed. Hopefully yours is too. -Just a quick update- While I have been gone, I moved to my moms RVContinue reading “Fixated”

Personality Traits In Bipolar

Change is upon me. I am in a season of change, I can feel it creeping much like Winter to Spring. It’s time to really accept what I cannot change, move on and find what it means to be truly happy with the now. My mom has always said that I resist change. As IContinue reading “Personality Traits In Bipolar”

&Found

I feel good today, like I have figured out some crucial details of my life. Instead of getting a second job and figuring out care for my kiddo, I decided to try the RV Lifestyle. I’ll be able to save money for land one day and then build my dream home. That’s the goal atContinue reading “&Found”

Lost

The way life ebbs and flows with the tide of time is amazing. One minute you are doing good and the next you aren’t. My medication is starting to help me balance my moods but life still happens, so navigating while medicated has been a learning experience. I still feel, and go through emotions. It’sContinue reading “Lost”

Timeliness

Life has been a rollercoaster as usual. The scales are never balanced. The foundation is solid…but it is taking time. Time I have no patience for. But I guess that’s an essence of it…time does not care what I have going on, just the one objective it has-to keep going forward. So like time, IContinue reading “Timeliness”

Up ⬆️ Then Down ⬇️

Things that are hard to do with mental illnesses: Shower Brush your teeth Get out of bed Stick to plans Eat healthy Clean up Do I need to list more? It’s hard to do day to day tasks with mental illness. People have told me to just do it. Just do it. Duh. But thenContinue reading “Up ⬆️ Then Down ⬇️”

Momma Tries

Dear Child, I want you to know that my mood swings was never your fault, it was all on me. I know I apologize every time but if you are anything like me when I was growing up, it will still affect you. I am learning just as you are, and every day is anContinue reading “Momma Tries”

I Just Need Time

Time to figure out my own bullshit. Time to pick the pieces up. Time to gather myself, Time to clean this mess. And time to become the me I am meant to be.

Surface Pressure

It’s been a weird time for me lately. I keep trying to “feel better” without much luck. One day I will give up a bad habit, and the next I am right back to it (like smoking cigarettes). My motivation levels are low, I avoid what brings joy to my life, and I cannot seemContinue reading “Surface Pressure”

30+ Days On Medication

The weather seemed to control my moods today instead of the medication. It was bright and sunny this afternoon, but now it’s snowing and cold. I was having a great day and then I was in my head with the intrusive thoughts. They’re back, I guess. And my head swirled with negative thinking that grewContinue reading “30+ Days On Medication”